Are You Angry with God? ~ blog
One of the results of remaining deep in your sexual brokenness is the reaction of being angry with God. We reason that if God truly loved us and has the power to heal us … but does not do this despite our pleading with Him for years then He must not love us or worse yet perhaps does not even exist.
Sometimes the silence from God is deafening. As a result, it seems like a reasonable thing to do … being angry at God. I mean it feels like we are lying there riddled with the wounds of sexual sin and God seems to be ignoring us. He must either be too busy or does not care. I was in such a dark place that I have felt those feelings.
Now, I could placate your feelings and agree with you that you are right … God does not really care for you since He does not seem to be helping you. He is a Holy and Righteous God who hates sin and sinners so buddy you are just getting what you paid for. You are reaping what you have sown so man up and take your punishment. Then, perhaps, after the punishment is over you will get a second chance … or is it a one-thousandth chance … I have lost count.
I have two problems with that line of reasoning other than the reality that it is just plain WRONG!!!
There is one extremely powerful thing we need to remember whenever we are faced with the thought that God does not love us. It’s that thing that looks like the letter “T” but has a little bit above the horizontal bar. It is that thing that they laid Him on, drove spikes through His hands and feet. Then they raised Him and the Cross up, dropping it into a hole in the ground and watched Him die of suffocation. And pierced His side with a spear just to make sure He was dead.
Yes, the cross. Those hours in the depth of darkness where Jesus allowed Himself to be crucified so that He could pay the price for all of our sins forever and remove from us the penalty of our sins … because they are now paid in full.
Please read these verses carefully.
“For while we were still helpless, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. For one will hardly die for a righteous man; though perhaps for the good man someone would dare even to die. But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from the wrath of God through Him.”
So, let’s talk about being angry with God. I’ve been angry with God. I have yelled at God at times of extreme frustration and I have learned He can take it. Expressing my anger to Him is a way of venting my frustration and as long as I am not blaming my situation on Him, I have no problem doing that.
However, for us to be angry with God to the point of wanting Him out of our life because He has not healed us from our years of sexual sin is a bit … how shall I say this … ridiculous.
It would be like me going to the doctor because I am sick. Receiving from him a prescription, getting it filled, and taking it home. But NOT taking medicine and being angry with the doctor that my having this prescription has not healed me. What is the clear and obvious lesson from that illustration? I am not doing what the doctor ordered. He has given me the solution to my illness, but I am not entering that medication into my body where it can actually do the job of ending my illness.
Now, imagine you go back to the doctor and you are still sick with the same sickness. He examines you and says he is confused because the medicine should have worked for you. It has helped millions of others with the same sickness but not for you. So, he asked you if you have any of the pills left and you say yes … all of them.
So, your patient and kind doctor takes the time to explain to you that buying the pills and just having them will not help you. You must ingest them so that the medication gets into your system and then the healing will take place. But you say you do not want to take the pills. It takes too much time and effort in your busy schedule to do that … and you ask him; “Can’t you just heal me?” He says “No, don’t be ridiculous … go home and takes the pills.
Now you are mad at him and angry that he did not heal you. However, where does the problem really exist? It is the fact that you want to heal but are not willing to do what it takes to have the healing happen in your life.
You want God to remove your sinful nature, block all sexual thoughts and images from reaching your brain, and send to hell the demonic forces that are harassing you. And He says He has given to YOU all that you need to live a life of godliness, but you are keeping the pills He has supplied in the bottle.
Sure, it is much more than taking a pill. It takes time to grow in your knowledge of the Bible, having times of prayer with Him, and maintaining community with other men who are also struggling. Notice what Peter says about this;
“His divine power has granted to us everything pertaining to life and godliness, through the true knowledge of Him who called us by His own glory and excellence. For by these He has granted to us His precious and magnificent promises, so that by them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world by lust.”
Want freedom … follow The Doctor’s orders.