Understanding Our True and Complete Forgiveness ~ blog
One of the struggles many believers who are addicted to porn and sex have is to really understand what the Bible teaches us about the forgiveness of our sins. When we first became born again, we rejoiced in knowing that our Father has forgiven our sins because the penalty for our sins has been completely paid for through the death of Jesus and the shedding of His blood to make atonement for our sins.
That happened for me when I was 19 years old sometime in September 1972. I was a typical Sophomore in college full of myself and pretending to be so much more than I really was. I was a star on the Varsity Lacrosse Team as the highest-scoring midfielder my freshman year and I really thought I was something special.
Except during the summer, I ruptured a disc in my back falling off a roof of a two-story split-level house working construction for the summer. The year that I was hoping to have was slipping away from my reality because I was in great pain every day surviving going to class using ibuprofen and lying in bed on a heating pad.
Someone shared the gospel with me and one night I asked for forgiveness and trusted Christ to be my Savior. And when I did that something very powerful happened. Not with the pain in my back but to the pain in my heart. I felt waves of forgiveness pouring over me and I felt like I went from a place of fearful darkness into a place of glorious light and was in the presence of the Lord experiencing His cleansing me of all my sins.
That was totally unexpected. I knew I was a sinner and my sins were separating me from God. Over a year before my girlfriend had an abortion and our relationship died that summer which left me reeling with rejection and guilt. But when I gave myself and my life to Jesus it was literally like He was washing me clean from all my sins and I felt incredibly good. I literally felt like I was completely clean and was filled with joy and peace.
However, years later after graduating from seminary in 1979, getting married to an incredible woman, having four children, and being successful in ministry I slowly began to slide back into sexual sin with porn and masturbation. The longer I strayed the further I felt I needed to go and ended up committing adultery and having affairs.
By the Grace of God, my sexually sinful life was exposed, I was completely broken believing I would lose everything. My wife should have divorced me. My kids should have abandoned me out of hate for the things I did and for being a complete phony for 8 years and I lay crushed under the weight of my sinfulness.
Out of desperation, I threw myself completely on the mercies and grace of God my Father. On my knees, I told Him to do whatever He wanted to me. I was not going to try and put the pieces back together again. I was not going to make excuses and lie about my sins. I would reveal to my wife everything I had done and let God do whatever He wanted to do in my life.
I knew that if I tried to put the pieces back together again, it would all fail again. I could not begin to rebuild my life because when my life was under my control everything became a disaster, and everyone was wounded and bleeding out. All I could do was throw myself on the mercies and grace of God and allow Him to help me one day, one hour at a time.
And the first thing God impressed upon me was that all my sins were forgiven. Not just all my past sins, but all of my present sins and all of my future sins. All the sins of all my entire life had been washed away by Jesus shedding His blood in the cross paying the penalty for all my sins and for all the sins of the world.
So, I began to scour the Bible to see exactly what if taught about the forgiveness of my sins and I learned that all my sins, past, present, and future sins were all completely paid for on the cross and by accepting Him as my Savior all the sins of all of my life were completely and forever forgiven.
In Hebrews 10 I read;
“…but He, having offered one sacrifice for sins for all time, sat down at the right hand of God … For by one offering He has perfected for all time those who are being sanctified.
“This is the covenant that I will make with them
After those days, says the Lord:
I will put My laws upon their heart,
And on their mind I will write them,”
He then says,
“And their sins and their lawless deeds
I will remember no more.”
Listen my friends this is truly what the Bible teaches about the forgiveness of all of our sins. Jesus, by His one sacrifice of His life, has shed His sinless blood so that all of our sins can be completely forgiven. He has removed us from our sins as far as the east is from the west. And see what it says in Colossians 2:
“When you were dead in your transgressions and the uncircumcision of your flesh, He made you alive together with Him, having forgiven us all our transgressions having canceled out the certificate of debt consisting of decrees against us, which was hostile to us; and He has taken it out of the way, having nailed it to the cross.”
So, stop believing the lies that you need to be begging God for more forgiveness of your sexual sins. They are all completely paid for, you have been washed clean, and God has taken the certificate of the debt of all your sins and nailed it to the cross.
So, instead of begging God for the forgiveness He has already given you why not start thanking Him for the forgiveness you already have?