My Newest “Things to NOT Do” List ~ blog
I have shared with some of you about the transformation I have experienced from the Holy Spirit over the past couple of years. After battling the lusts of my flesh since I was 12, for 55 years, I have noticed something I did not expect would ever happen.
I almost do not want to tell everyone about it because I feel then it might not continue, and I might fall flat on my face. However, I believe I should because it will encourage you to keep pressing on with your own recovery and find this place in which I find myself. I am not saying that I will never experience this battle with my flesh in this way again and a new challenge has already risen to the top of my “Things to Not Do” list.
So, with all humility, I want to praise the Holy Spirit of God for transforming me in this battle with my flesh and its all-consuming desire for porn and sexual sin. I have noticed recently that I am not feeling the pull or power of my flesh tempting me with porn. I cannot remember the last time I actually went to a porn site.
However, since I am an accountability partner with quite a few men on Covenant Eyes on occasion, I will check a visit they made to a “Highly Mature” site just to check and see if it is porn or not. So, when I click on the link, I have my cursor over the red X so that I can close it immediately if I see people with no clothes on.
The last time I saw porn images pop up on my screen, I immediately closed it. However, I have noticed for a while now that if I see porn instead of having the old reaction of wow…look what I found, and immediately wanting to see more…I felt disgusted by what I was seeing. It did not look appealing to me at all, in fact, it looked sad and almost violent.
I saw two people engaging in sex but there was nothing appealing to it. There was absolutely no sense of sexual intimacy, no caring or loving of each other. I might as well have been watching two dogs having sex.
I cannot tell you how thankful I am to have reached this place in my life. I could have never done it on my own. It has been a transformation by the Holy Spirit in me. My desires have changed and sex for me has become the sacred thing God meant it to be between my wife and myself.
Please, I am not trying to say;
“Look at me and how spiritual I have become!!!”
This is not something that I have done or could ever do. I feel even more like Paul when he declared;
“Wretched man that I am who will free me from this body of death!”
I am a sinful and broken man whom God seems to be using me to encourage my brothers in Christ, around the world, to give you hope. The same Spirit that has done this work in me also dwells in you and wants to help you walk in the Spirit and stop fulfilling the desires of your flesh. I now see porn and sexual sin as the vomit I kept consuming for decades telling myself it was steak. What fools we all have been.
So, please, whatever you do…do not lose hope and do not give up. If you really mean it when you say you want to stop it then what actions are you taking to do your part in this transformation process?
I know some of you are so defeated and filled with self-loathing that you dare not have another hope of freedom only to see it crash again on the rocks of failure. You might even be convinced that God no longer loves you and you are doomed to hell when you die.
Lies Alert…Lies Alert
As Paul wrote in Philippians 1:6;
“…being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you
will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
God began this work of salvation in you when He chose you before the creation of the universe…see my last two emails/podcasts. And we have His absolute and iron-clad promise that He is going to finish this work in you. He has sealed you with His Holy Spirit as His guarantee that you are going to receive your inheritance in heaven.
So, stop believing the bull sh*t satan is pouring into your minds and make these 4 things a commitment to do virtually every day.
Daily offer your bodies to God as a living sacrifice. Romans 12:1-2
Daily ask for the Holy Spirit to fill and influence you as you walk in the Spirit. Ephesians 5:18 and Galatians 5:16.
Put on the Full Armor of God – Ephesians 6:10-17
And for your own sake and the sake of others find a community who will give you strong biblical teachings, strong accountability, powerful daily support.
Gosh, if only there were available to everyone anywhere in this world a way to do that. If only there were on the world wide web access to connecting with other Christians instantly to get the help we all need.
Oh, that’s right there is. 180 Online Support Teams. Where you can receive the biblical teachings and learn the truth about God’s desire to help you, meet other men who you will probably never see in person, and who will hold the truth about your struggle in absolute silence. And men who have learned how to recovery and how to help you in your recovery. And whom you can be in touch with every day at almost any hour.
Sounds too good to be true…but it is true…so why not contact me and at least take a look at how you can find the help you know you need and begin to put to death these damn desires of the flesh.
Now, at the top of my “Things to Not Do” list is to not become an angry old grouch. To not be frustrated with every driver that is in front of me at a stoplight or sign and to be kind and gentle with my loved ones.